blurg.

Ah, jeez.
You know what I hate to love? Discovering new blogs. As an English major/writing nerd, deep down I get so excited when I find a new blog full of all those wonderful posts I can't wait to read. I sit there for hours and essentially stalk the online life of some new stranger and whatever they felt like sharing about their life because they're so dang funny and they have such good written communication skills [one of the 7 necessary to be a successful human being according to my 10th grade English teacher. it's number 3.] that I can't stop!

Blogs are kind of like my heroin in that way.
Actually, that simile isn't completely accurate. I think what's more true is blogs are kind of like my version of bulimia. It's not just that I'm continuously addicted to reading blogs and meandering through the internet. What happens to me is I find something new and exciting in the blog world and then I binge and binge and binge on it because it's so intellectually delicious that I can't stop and then days or weeks later I hit a plateau and I purge myself of that particular thing for a while until I need to return or find a new scintillating site to scarf.
Yeah, that's more accurate. It's a binge and purge thing.

Guess what folks, while I love to stimulate my mind and laugh hysterically, after the initial enjoyment hits, there's this wave of horror. I think it's Jiminy Cricket talking to me, because he says it in that stupid voice that makes you so angry because of how right and genuine it is. But inside my head I hear, "You haven't posted anything in a long time. You haven't posted anything worthwhile in waaaaay longer than that. You should probably decide if you want to take blogging seriously for once like you always tell yourself you're going to."

And then I start to resent that beautiful new blog that I loved so much, and hence my plateau.
Today I found a new blog thanks to my friend Christy, and I heard Jiminy within reading three posts. this is what he said, "His writing is so witty, and sharp. I really love his tone and style. Too bad none of the stuff you write is like this. What has it been? weeks since your last few posts? and wasn't it months before those?"

Did you notice his judgmental tone? I didn't like hearing Jiminy today. Especially not on New Year's Eve, when I'm supposed to reevaluate my life and what not.

But I guess making a resolution to become a better blogger is certainly more attainable than the other resolutions most of us like to joke that we'll keep. Or start.
Yeah, I think I'll stick with dedicating myself to being a better blogger as my resolution. Because let's be real. Any of you reading this know I'll be back at Taco Bell next week, or I'll waste money on some new purse I don't need right before a mission, or I'll rationalize watching just one of my melodrama/reality shows instead of giving them all up. We all know it would start with Jersey Shore and I'd be right back to where I am.

So instead of changing any of that, I'm just gonna write about it more.